The Perpetual Burnout in Recovery

I’ve been doing this for what feels like a long time now and no matter how much I overdo it or if I have a balance between my recovery and my leisure I hit a wall and sleep for a day or two every 3 to 6 months. This past weekend I hit that wall and despite getting my normal amount of sleep, as soon as I completed my daily routine I curled up and fell asleep for the rest of the day. Normally I wake up a bit angry for wasting a day, but this time I felt at least partially rejuvenated and it was glorious.

I hit this burnout in the fall of last year so I have been waiting for the day that I was left sleeping like the dead. I’ve been putting in 10 to 18 hour recovery and personal project days for at least 6 days a week for the last six months and hitting this wall was a great reminder that sometimes I just need to rest. My pain levels unmanageable, energy levels nonexistent, and my appetite for recovery uncontrollable; eventually I crash because my body needs a break from me.

I know from my recovery history that I can burn out every three months and now even have favorite a burnout. My favorite would be the one where I slept for 18 hours only broken by the need to quench my hunger. That one happened when I was still in school and pushing my body way harder than I was supposed to (is anybody surprised). Since my paralysis the longest I have ever gone without burning out was only seven months and it has only occurred once.

One of the things I do in an attempt to prevent or prolong the time between burnout is daily meditation for at least an hour. If I’m really feeling my zen I get into a habit of meditation both before I start my day and as it comes to an end. This is one thing that has kept me relatively sane through the last few years of my rehabilitation.

What do you do to prevent your burnout and work through them?

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